I am taking a hiatus off from my 100-Day Challenge.
Because it’s stressing me out.
Not only that but I have some obligations this week that may have me running around like a chicken with no head or escaping to Tahiti (the latter sounds the most pleasent).
That does not mean that I won’t finish it.
Just that I need to finish the week out and take a weekend to regroup and come back at it strong.
You’ll see my next post on Monday, September 7th!
Everyone has insecurities. There are those who take them on with humor, those who wrap themselves up and pretend they have none, there are those who doubt themselves (and others) constantly, there are those who create stories to cover their insecurities up and there are those who take action because of their insecurities.
Humans are insecure. Every single one of us.
What am I insecure about? Maybe it’s that I hate taking pictures because one of my eyes is smaller than the other (my youngest sister and I blame our mom for this quirky feature). So I always overcompensate by opening my eyes wide in pictures and looking like a deer in headlights. My selfie game obviously needs work.
Maybe it’s the flawed way that I get so excited about something that I can’t put the words together that I want to say and somehow make an idiot of myself by saying the wrong thing or mispronouncing it. I have to make a conscious effort to slow down and think about what I’m saying.
I would say that one of my most dominant insecurities that has made itself known as of late is self-doubt. I’m a confident person. Or I try. But on occasion the little voice in my head says things that make me doubt myself. Whether it’s in a personal relationship – (my friend, who I’ll dub the songwriter, made me aware of that particular fault last night in a late night insomnia induced conversation) or at work (hitting send on an email that is going to 35,000 customers always makes me nervous – did I spell every word correctly? Are the images linked correctly).
Sometimes great things come out of insecurities. I’ve made some positive improvements in my life lately because of them. I’m only human but I am a better one by learning from every dazzling, confusing piece of myself.
The presidential election is more than a year away but the politicking is already strong in Iowa. Why? Iowa happens to be home to the first presidential caucuses in the country and with both parties looking for their candidate it’s become the go-to spot for everyone from the candidates themselves to celebrities rallying for (or against) candidates.
Before moving to Iowa for college, I wasn’t into politics. Now, they are part of my everyday conversation. But it is sometime overwhelming how much of an impact they have on my day to day life. And it’s a struggle to not be put in a box for being a young, single female. Just this past weekend I had to tell someone that just because I personally have made a choice doesn’t mean I think that everyone shouldn’t have the right to choose (if you must know, the topic was abortion). Politics is a personal thing; I can’t be put in a box.
So if we meet in person over the next year, I apologize in advance if conversation leans towards politics. It’s consuming, and impacting, my life more and more each day.
Day 19 – What is something that has made a huge impact on your life recently? Share it with us.